Seriously.

It's been a while. Christmas was here and left way too soon. I feel like it flew by even more this year than usual. For Christmas my sister and luke took the kids (and I) to the Great Wolf Lodge in Ohio. We left Christmas day around 2 and spent the night there, it was good times. Although I felt like junk the whole time, it was lots of fun. Then The next day I found out I had Mono and Strep throat... which leads me to my next question.... are you freaking kidding me? I would like to say that the last three months have been good, but they have sucked. I have been struggling with my stupid thyroid and all of those issues, and now this. I'm trying to stay positive, but I have to be honest and say that I'm sicking of feeling like total junk. My thought is, that in the New Year it can only get better right? Gosh I hope so. So the next few days (atleast) will consist of me laying around like a bum, trying to get healthy. I don't have time or money to be sick, so I'm hoping that God heals me quickly. I've slept the greater part of the past three days, and though I know I need it and it's good for me, I'm already bored. Oh well, I'll stop complaining now. I hope everyone had a fantastic Christmas and Happy New Year :)

Love

Don’t just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good. Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other. ::Romans 12:9-10


Love. It is a word that we throw around a lot. Or at least I do. I "love" a whole lot of things/ people. But then I think about what God meant for the word love. I think that our biggest job as christians is to love. But I have to be honest and admit that sometimes I pretend to love people. It's not that I want to be fake, it's that sometimes people are unlovable (myself included). But these verses very clearly lay out that we should not just pretend to love others but we need to whole heartedly love them. It needs to be genuine and filled with the love of Christ. And when I think about it like that, I realize that I don't love a whole lot of things as Christ would. But that is my prayer... too love them like He does. 


It also says to hate what is wrong and hold tightly to what is good. Why is that so hard? Why do we naturally gravitate towards the wrong and take advantage of the good? Oh yeah... cause we are all lame sinners. It is so easy to get caught up in this world with the bad. After talking with a friend tonight, I realized that for way too long, I was consumed with things that were not good. And that people saw me as something that I didn't ever want to be. Now the great thing, is that God can change that and make it into something beautiful, and he has, and man he is amazing. But it is just so easy to do wrong, and so hard to do what is right. With that being said, my heart breaks for those who don't know Him. Because without God, I would be lost and would not love others. And in this world, there is so much wrong and very little good anymore. It breaks my heart... 


All you need is love.