It's been a while.

So it's been a long time. There are so many things that I'm still trying to process and that I want to write about. 

It's so hard coming home from camp. People don't understand what I do in the summer, so when they ask, "How was it?", I feel like I have about 15 seconds to give them an answer that could no way due my summer justice. I wish that people that knew me could watch just a day of camp, because only then could they understand what it is, and how amazing it is. 

With that being said.. it was a simply unbelievable summer. I got to see God work in so many amazing ways and the coolest part of it, is he uses someone like me to do his work. Being a site director I definitely got to experience camp in a different way. It was so cool to work all spring setting up the ministry sites and then getting to send students, staff, and youth leaders to go and serve at those places. It was awesome to go and visit them, and also just see their needs being met. 

In Matthew it says...

For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

 "Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

 "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'... Matthew 25:35-40


These are verses that we use the first night of camp to train the students on how to share the gospel and to explain to them the awesome privilege and challenge they have as they encounter new people. I love these verses because they so clearly tell us what we as christians are supposed to do. And yet we so easily get wrapped up in every day things that we totally miss what our purpose is. Clearly we cannot feed Jesus or clothe Him... But we can serve hIs people who don't know him and who don't have their basic needs being met. 


I struggle with the differences between camp me and everyday me. At camp I am serving others and worshipping him every second of the day and it's amazing. At home it's obviously not the same. At camp your surrounded by people doing the same thing, so I understand why it is the way it is, but it still leaves me feeling icky. 


I grow more in the 2-3 months of camp as a christian then I do in an entire year in my day to day life. My goal this year is to change that. So far it's been great.





People let me down, and I know that I let others down. But it sucks. Recently I was told that everyone will let you down, except for God. And as much as that statement makes me sad, I know it's true. But after really thinking about that, I realized how hard that is for me to handle, but I have a relationship with God which makes it okay. But then as I started to think about people who don't know him or those who don't believe in them, they have no one that they can depend on to never let them down. As I thought about that I felt so hopeless for them. I think about some of my close family members who don't know him, and wonder how they get through things without knowing that he's there taking care of them. 

I need to share him with others and those around me that I love and adore that don't know him. More importantly I need my life to be a daily testimony to how amazing he is and how much I love him, so that others can see that through me. I think that most christians need to step up in the area of missions and telling people about our God... myself included. 

Please pray for my sister... she's been having vision problems and headaches for the last 3 weeks straight. She can't read or do computer work and she's miserable. The doctors don't know what's wrong and every test they've done has come back totally normal. She is going to a neurologist because her family doctor think it could be Multiple Sclerosis , which is scary and not at all a good thing. The wierd thing though, is even as I talked to her today about it, she seemed at peace with it. She's scared and hopes it isn't some scary like that, but she just kept saying that if it's god's will it's okay. And though I totally agree with that, it still completely terrifies me for her. She is so strong and has influenced me so much as a christian, and even now as she is scared and looking at scary options she is solid as a rock. I love my sister, and I can't believe that this is God's plan for her life, I just need to find a way to support her and love her and help her during all of this... Please just continue to pray for her and her family....

I see many more blogs coming soon. I've got lots on my heart and mind...