Rain, Rain, Go away.

So I am in Bowling Green Ky. I drove about 9 hours today, it should have been way less, but took a super long time because of the torrential downpour that happened 3 times today. It was not fun and btw I hate Ohio. I hate I-75 through Ohio. I'm not a fan of crazy truck drivers that cut me off. Tomorrow I only have "4 hours" drive to birmingham... But we'll see. Hopefully it will take less time, and not more. Let's cross our fingers. Have a great night!

On my way...

Well guys, I am leaving in a few minutes to begin my journey down to Birmingham! Today I am driving to bowling green, then finishing on to birmingham tomorrow! Please pray that I will get there safely and that God will keep me alert while I'm driving! Thanks guys! I hope you have a great day :)

5 days

Only 5 days until I leave for the summer. I am starting to realize how much I am going to miss my niece and nephews while I am gone. Every time I think about saying good bye to them, I cry a little bit. I'm not looking forward to saying good bye to them...at all. But I AM looking forward to going and serving God this summer. I know that God is going to use me to do amazing things for His glory and that is so amazing! 

Here is my address. Please feel free to send me stuff... anything really, just to let me know that you love me! :)

Jesse Scenga/M-Fuge Staff

Samford University

800 Lakeshore Dr.

Birmingham, AL 35229

Done.

I am officially done with classes for the semester..yay! I don't think I have ever been so happy to finish a semester. Only one more semester and then I am done! I can't wait! 

2 weeks from today, I will be on my way to Birmingham. I can't believe it. Please pray for me as I prepare to serve God this summer. Pray that God will prepare every part of me.. spiritually, physically, and emotionally.

I am going to try to find a way to move out on my own next fall. I hope I can make that happen. I love my family, and living with them isn't bad at all. But I so badly want my own place and to feel like a worthwhile adult. Hopefully it will all work itself out, we'll see.

Friday

I am so happy that it's friday. It has been a long week, and I am glad to see it come to an end. Only one more week of school and I can't wait. I am so ready to not have to think/ worry about homework or class. 

Lately I have noticed that I am a pretty emotional person. And I find myself trying to justify why I show my emotions all of the time.. And I don't understand when I'm doing this. Is there something wrong with showing emotion? I've never thought so before, but lately I feel like there is something wrong with that. Now I could see if I were an emotional mess that cried everyday... that would be problematic, but that's not me at all. Hmm... maybe I'm just spending more time with people who don't where their heart on their sleeve like I do. But either way, I want to stop trying to justify that to people. I am who I am. I am emotional, and care about people, and yes I even where my heart on my sleeve most of the time. But that's me.

Next thought. I normally do well with change, and often I actually enjoy mixing things up. But this time it's different. I'm struggling. It's not a huge change in my life, just a change in one aspect of my life. Most of the people around me seem to be totally fine, while I am sad and struggling. Could this go back to me being too emotional? Or is this normal? I don't know. 

I do know that I am stressed and feeling overly busy with end of the semester stuff and trying to get myself prepared for the summer. 

Camp. Glorious camp. Have I mentioned how pumped I am to go and spread God's love and message to the city of Birmingham? And how I can't wait to love on the children in the inner-city.. and teach hundreds of youth how amazing my God is? Camp is the only time in my life that I have ever felt that I was living in a way that is serving God. I don't think that it's because in my normal day to day life, I'm Not serving God (which may be true), but I think it's because at camp all you do all day long is serve others and serve God. That is what we were created to do, and there is nothing more satisfying in life. 

"Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men..." Eph 6:7

ugh.

Sometimes I wish my feelings would be wrong. I'm sad. But I'm trying to be hopeful and optimistic. That is what I'll do. Oh and pray. Pray, Pray, Pray. 

One more week of school...

22 days until I leave for the summer...

1 Million things to do...

Goodnight.

I could use some encouragement right now...ugh. So much to do, and not nearly enough time to do it all.